Saturday, August 13, 2011

When will people stop just to listen

I just dropped off my angel at home after a wonderful day of heart to heart talks which i'll place on another post. I do miss her already, she's always so good to me and a constant reminder of why i'm willing to put up with the things during the weekdays, just to make sure she is never has to go through that i do.

There really are times though, when i wonder if i'm alone on this. The weekends is when i receive my healing from a loving angel who hugs me and kisses me on the cheek always reminding me how good of a job i'm doing as a dad, yes my angel compliments me. But, then come weekdays and i am back to the same all over again. The week as always will start with going to work, getting the rumors spread all over the place about me by my coworker. I'll then get shunned by employees from a store because of their believing him, further looked down by someone who once said hello to me but now thinks i'm public enemy #1. In addition to this, because my coworker has seniority in the building they'd prefer to receive first aid treatment from him instead of me. Though i am nice to everyone i sometimes wish i didn't have to read between the lines, but i keep my smile over my loneliness and continue through the day not saying much. This way, at least i don't have to validate or deny any of the rumors that are said about me, the week goes on like this every week that i long to be with my angel. Because at least she, will be good to me no matter what others think about me. But, then i often find myself wondering. Will people in my workplace ever stop listening to rumors, and just try to get to know the real me? one can only wonder why people never stop to take a look and listen to what someone has to say, instead of believing the word of someone who knows nothing about me at all? i only wish i knew.

8 comments:

  1. oh dude i feel for you. but you know what? sorry but i gotta tell you, you are lucky that you get to see your "angel" every week. me? my work days are can also be horrible, and i also get antagonistic with people at work but when i get home, there's nobody to comfort me and weekends are just spent alone in my room blogging because my angel is on the other side of the globe. good luck to you and thank you for posting! take good care of your angel!

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  2. I will! thank you very kindly for your comments, you are so much stronger than i am! :)

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  3. i think about going back to her every day, but when i think about how she would suffer the effects of poverty if i give in to my loneliness lets me endure the day. i guess she makes me strong. my sweet little girl...i miss her so much!

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  4. I apologize for being nosy, but what do you mean about the poverty part?

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  5. lets just say i have to work overseas because there's really no real money to make in the motherland...

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  6. Ah, i see. I can respect that :)

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  7. Hi there! I am so touched with how you describe your relationship with your little angel. You seem like a very sweet and caring dad. About the people in your workplace, just ignore them (if you can). Office gossip is one of the worst thing that can happen to a person but if the rumors aren't true, the truth shall prevail. It may take sometime but it will. Just keep the faith..

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  8. Thank you for your kind words, i wish people would feel that way about me. I just wish i didn't have to lose the friendship that i tried to build at the store, before my coworker ruined it. But! yes! staying faithful that god will help them see the truth! :)

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